Moved my blog

I still might update this sometimes, but for the most part I'm over there. Peace out! :)

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gurrrrrrrr

I hate when stick thin girls talk about how they love food and eat all the time.... stuff like pizza and cookies as if to say, ya I'm so skinny but I eat sooooooo much cause Im so cool! SORRY YA RIGHT YOU EAT ALL THAT... IF YOU HAVE TO BRAG ABOUT IT THEN YOUR PROB BEST FRIENDS WITH THE TOILET AFTER. IN VARY RARE CASES CAN U EAT LIKE THAT AND BE THIN.

Cut my bangs again!

I always do it and I always regret it, now they are in my eyes all the time... annoying. WHY DON'T I LEARN!

baby bath!

she love it!

Cute cousins!

Im gonna print this pic of the 3 baby's girls for rickys dads bday this weekend! :)

Shouldnt blog right now.

I feel like I only want to wright in my journal or blog when I'm mad, sad or upset about something. Why don't I ever really feel like it when I'm happy? I must come off as a mad, sad, upset person all the damn time.

So right now I'm having a fml moment. I feel like just disappearing off the face of planet. I feel like on 19 again in a bad way, I wont go into that. I just need to get a grip, and accept that I'm 20fricken6 married to a man that works entirely to hard and I have a baby. I cant cry over not being invited to birthday party's anymore, cause why would I be invited... I A MOM RIGHT. I feel like I have no one to talk to or maybe I could find someone to annoy with my problems, but it wouldn't make anything better. It doesn't help when I know they couldn't really care less anyway.

Awwwwwwww i just need to sleep.

Vent sesh. BLEEEEEPITY BLEEP.

Some people form my high school make me wanna gag. They were fake and judgmental then and they still are now. I cant stand people that sit on there high horse and judge other people cocky stuck up snobs. WWJD HUH???? And your trying to bring people to God? your doing a pretty sorry job of representing him. Some of the most hurtful mean bitchy and 2 faced people I have ever met came from CCHS- Don't get me wrong I loved my teachers and i have a lot of wonderful friends from there but the people I'm talking about put a bitter taste in my mouth. I'm so glad they not in my life now! I just cant stand people that are like... were soooooooo cool and popular and we all hang out and take blurry pix of are self's with are old instamatic cameras wearing black rimed gasses and drinking coffee. ahhhh! Its funny too cause they wont add me on facebook, and thank God. I don't want to be Friends... its just funny that we have all the same mutual friends hahah Im not the same girl I was in HS and If they even tried to act like they are better then me now, I would take them down a peg that's for sure. Hope we have a 10 year reunion! :)

Body envy...

I want her body! waaaaaaa haha
I love Bar Refaeli's Body shes healthy and hot and she it not a stick... she is thin yes, but shes got meat on her bones and she dose not have ribs popping out! I just think more models should look like this and not sickly.

Miss you Sara boo!

Come over and snuggle with me soon! xoxoxox

Breastfeeding aahhhhhhhh!

Its one of the most challenging things I have ever done. In one way I just want to quit and have my body back, but on the other hand I wish I was breastfeeding more. Waking up at 5 am with milk drenched shirts aren't pleasant. I feel guilty when I give her formula and I feel even worse when I go to the doc and they tell me I need to be BF more. Its something no body understands until there are a Mom and I never thought I would feel this way. Its just you wanna do what best for your child so you feel bad when your not or cant. It has not come easy to me, I didn't have a vary good start, I have been pumping and giving her formula and mixing it. I used to think I wouldn't mind not breastfeeding her but not I want to because its healthier for me and her. There is so many benefit's for both of us. AHHHHHH I just wish is was easy.

Burts Bees Burt's Bees Lifeguard's Choice Lip Balm

If any one finds this and buys it for me I would be so thankful. And of course Ill pay you for it! I have been trying to find it forever and Im almost done with the one I have left ;( I NEED IT! haha

Finally!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its been a long day, Im sick and My baby would not sleep unless I was holding her and walking around singing California girls AHHHHHHHHHHH. I need a massage!

Im sick MAAAAAAHHHHH!

Thank Jesus for green tea w/honey.

Coconut cupcakes!

I made cupcakes for my 26th b day party they we delish. I also made a lot more stuff that I forgot to take pix of Bummer!!

I made me a pizza!

And it was goooooood!!!!!!!!

Should I?????

I love this but I don't think I'm brave enough! I'm so bored with my hair!

Me 3 weeks post baby!

I have a lot more to go before christmas I wanna be much thinner. I'm not as big as i thought I would be after the baby woooo! :)

Savannah and her cuz Vera!

CUTE BABYS!

Open mouth insert foot.

Lately I feel that I'm having a real problem speaking with tacked. I feel so ashamed as some of the stuff that come out of my mouth and it comes out all wrong. I never say anything with mean intent. I have always been a tell it like it is person and I know theirs a time and a place. I usually use discretion. Well as of late I feel like I'm loosing my mind and my ability to speak English. I think I have been in Sweden too long... I need to get back to my roots and learn how to talk again. I wont blame intoxicating drink... but that was a factor on my birthday.

dis·cre·tion/disˈkreSHən/Noun
1. The quality of behaving or speaking in such a way as to avoid causing offense or revealing private information.

hahahah Ya that's pretty much not me at the moment! Maybe I am over thinking it and being too hard on myself, but I cant stand people that are rude! I would hate to become that way and be oblivious to it. I need to nip it in the bud, like yesterday!

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