Take me away please..

Somewhere warm. Husband found a ticket back to Cali for 8000kr last night for savannah and I round trip. I don't know if I'll really go right now but it's a real strong idea. I just wanna get out of here away from here. I really used to love this little town but I'm starting to feel like I'm suffocating. In one way I just wanna be alone in another way I don't wanna feel lonely. I have tried again today to call the doctor about my depression but it feel like it's going nowhere. They just keep telling me to call somewhere else, ya really good help to someone thar needs help. But I found a English therapist online in Stockholm, sound good right?? Wrong... It's 900kr per session that in it self makes me depressed. I can't even think if spending that much to talk to someone for 45 min. Oh well I don't know what I'm gonna do now. Just gotta keep moving. Keep breathing. I just wanna be happy again.