It's always gonna hurt.

Now That its decided that we are moving back to california, It's seriously hurts my heart to think of leaving my friends that I have made here. I feel so torn between 2 worlds and it kills me to know I won't be 3 minutes away from my best friends. I mean Jojo... I don't know what I have done for my whole life with out her as my best friend and now that I have her, I can't imagine not being able to hang out whenever I want. I almost don't even wanna meet her baby because I know I'll fall in love with him and then I'll move away. It's gonna break my heart in half. I know is best for me but it gonna be so hard. I'll see all of you again but it's not gonna be the same. Why is life so hard. :(