Things I miss!

Cream cheese caramel apple spread!!! OMG

This treat look amazing!! Yum

This sound yummy!!! Detox NOM!

Make up love!!

The real housewife of OC

Back bay Newport Beach

We went for a family walk at the back bay. It's so beatuiful and Seren here. I'm trying to keep my mind off all my life stresses and trying to get out and walk once a day to get my heart pumping! So far it's day 3 of walking! I gotta keep it up! 

Cheryl - I Don't Care (Explicit) best best!!!!!

Gyno

I don't wanna do it! Lol

I'm a lion!

The last couple of days have been crazy. I'm still waiting on lab results but I just want to say we should all be thankful when we are in good Heath. Life is short and so many people are not healthy, I'm thankful everyday for my children's and husbands Health and mine. Let's just say I have woken up to the fact that you can't just live like nothing will ever happin to you. And I may be perfectly fine maybe my labs come back all neg. but I'm still going to change my life for the better because I want to be around to see my kid get married and have kids of their own. I'm on it world! Praying for all good news! 

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Dream room!

Sunday morning with my angel!

Pumpkin painting!!!

So today the plan was to dress up and go to our friends pumpkin carving party! But I have not been feeling well because of uti so I Started antibiotics today. :/ so we stayed home and took it easy. I had been telling savannah all week she was gonna get to dress up and it was gonna be so much fun but then things changed. So we wanted to make sure she still had fun. So we had a little pumpkin painting party at home just us! I have to say my kids are never happier than when I give them time and positive attention. Skyler was so excited she couldn't even contain herself! Art make all of us calm and happy savannah thanks me and tells me I'm the best mommy. She just so happy in her little heart it makes me happy. I know I need to spend more time doing stuff like this with her!

Cal-optma and having a UTI

Sucks! Both of them. I don't shame people that need to be on cal-optma but I can not wait till the day I don't have to be. I miss the Swedish health care right now. So I have to pee every 30 min and that's starts to freak me out so I get anxity attacks because we all know I have hypochondria. So I start thinking I have diabeties. I call all th health care providers I can and no one will take me finally I get a hold if one, he answers the phone... Wong, me what? Wong! I say yes umm I need to make a apointment. He said when, I say soon he's says ok Monday 2:00 I say ok he hangs up. Wow so perfesional, but what can I expect form the bottom if the barrel health care. Ya thanks Obama this is awesome. So i have my sister take me to the hoag ER last night l walk in see the Ebola protocol and I'm officially freaked out and I leave. I decided to go to cvs a drugstore and just pick up the

I go home take the test! Shows I have a uti so I take the other 2 test and all are positive. So all night I'm pounding cranberry juice I take vitimin c and magnesium and I soak in a Epsom salt bath. Go to sleep! I still need to pee every . But I'm going to the doc Monday. 

So I feeling really bad and it's Saturday I need to see someone before Monday. So I call the 2 regent cares in my area... Guess what they are closed on the weekends OF COURSE!  So I go to a regular ER care and they tell me it's gonna be 175 for a uti test. I just did it because last time I ignored it I was in the hospital for 4 days. So they do the test... And  it's clear no infection. What?? So now that's 175 down the drain. :(  I'm confused, they said maybe it's just the early stages and not showing up yet. So i get a perception for antibiotics but he tells me that might not work cause they don't know what bacteria it is. I'm so tired at this point. I just wanna feel better. 

My heart!! Skyler Sienna Rose

She got the cute little fix outfit from her god mama Jojo!!! We have been waiting till is cool enough to put it on because it been so dang hot in California. Finanlly last night she got to romp around in it! Love it thank you Jojo!!! 

Healthy alternative!

I have a hard time eating healthy mostly cause I love food and I'm a creature of habit! But since I have tried this avcado spread instead of mayo and organic bread it still may not be the most healthy but us closer! :) small changes! 

I'm dreaming if a place called home

Starbucks

My guilty are these dang caramel frapps the are so bad for me though. I'm caffine sensitive so I can't drink a full regular coffee. This is the perfect amount of caffine and I wake up without feeling shakey. But I need another alternative. 

Apartment search!

Looks well enough right!!! 

Oooooh my....

Barfed in my mouth a little, this is horrific.

Ooooh hell nah!!! 

Really really bad day.

It's been one if the worst days in a while today. I cried for a good part of the day. I'm just so sad, I lost and have given up so much, I just want a break. I want a home again, I wanna put my 4 year old to bed In A bed... not a baby crib. It hurts me that my kids don't have a room of there own. It's hard, I just want it I'll to be over with. I miss my friends, I miss being able to be myself call up or go over to my friend and talk cry and just be me. I feel like no body want to hear me complain so I don't wanna bother them. Today has just been the straw the broke the camels back. I want a home again. I want people that get me. And take me the whole me as I am the good bad and the ugly. I want Ricky to hav a good job, but I'm scared, I just wanna feel safe. I'm over talking now. I'm to drained from this day to even express anymore. Tomorrow is another day. 

Skeleton baby!!! Glow in the dark!!

Night out on the town!!

I'm Finally feeling a bit better from my cold! So We went out for a little stroll!! Gots some Starbucks! We hit up the Halloween store!! Durring any Hollidays I really remember why I missed America so much we Americans sure know how to celabreate!! I mean the Halloween deccor Is amazing!! They do it like its Christmas!! I have missed this part if being home! So fun!! 

Date night!!

Much needed date dinner and a movie!! with my hubby!! It's something you need to do! We love our kids but man ohhhh man we need to have a break sometime from the soround sound of our girls.