Day 2 No carbs

I actually feel pretty good. I thought it would be much harder to go with out crabs but to be honest its ok, Im not starving and I feel good. This is not a permanent thing of course but if I start to see results then Ill know what I need to go easy from now no. I Don't really care what people think about how I look anymore, people are always gonna have an opinion and it really does not matter. Its about how I feel about myself and if im not happy I need to change it. Im really quite sick of some people thinking that its ok to be completely truthful to tell me I'm fat! And they cant believe I let myself go this far... WOW!!!! You know there are a lot of truths that I can think to say too... But I have something called tact. I don't have vocalize everything I think, because I don't need to hurt other people to feel better about myself.
I used to play soccer at a competitive level, Varsity all 4 years and ayso plus and club for 13 years of my life. After i turned 18 and graduated high school It all completely ended. I was raised on crabs we had pasta party's every Fridays to get ready for came days on Saturday. I'm not making excuses but its hard to go from being an athlete to taring my PCL ligament in my knee, rehab for a year, coming back ready to play and being benched. Then NOTHING. I was pushed in practice, I loved what I did! NOW its all over. I Have to do it on my own now. Its hard but Im gonna try. People that have opinions about My body and how I look can keep it to them selfs or get the hell out of my life! I don't need negative energy around me and I don't need to feel worse then I already do. J out.

Warning!!! bad words

LOVE!

When Thin Wasn't In.

Western Standards of Beauty:

When Thin Wasn't In

Hard to believe as it seems, thin wasn't always in. There are centuries of documentation of female beauty, and except for ours, the trend is fairly consistant: beautiful women are shapely, soft, and rounded. What a contrast is that idea to our current ideal - the waif-like figure introduced by Twiggy and popularized by the likes of Kate Moss!

This timeline is an illustrated journey through the last 600 years, from the portraits of the European Renaissance to red-carpet photos of modern celebrities. What would our society today say to these women about their bodies? And, perhaps more importantly, what would these women have to say to us?

I wish I was from the 17 - 18th century, I would say eat a freaken burger you like like your starving to all the skinny twigs I see today.

Big brother Sweden song! weeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!

<3<3<3 XOXO

Sunday BBQ!

We were gonna go to a bbq at a friends but decided to stay home and take it easy! So we bbq at home just the 3 of us. :) Now we wait for the Big brother final. I couldn't really care less who wins but should be fun to see. I'm guessing martin will win cause hes Hot but who knows. lol So now the night is free! XOXO lovers!

random thoughts...

Your seriously a freak.

Babies coming out the yeeeehhaaaa.

I'm so over it.

I'm sorry you lost someone you loved and even though I didn't know them, and I barley know you, I feel like crying because I feel your pain.

There is more to life.

I wanna let go, but its hard.

I want to bake a rainbow cake.

I think I'm gonna start my period soon.

I hate to love you.

I don't care.

I'm tired of being bored of being tired.

Im scared.

Im excited!

You seriously suck.

I love you.

Happy saturday!

New Cousin!

Savannah got to meet her new cousin today! She was a cute little one she looks so tini I cant even remember when Savannah was that little. Savannah and Vera were more interested in cookies, LOL savannah looked at the little baby like she was from outer space. I dont think she knew what to think she has never seem a baby so little. Im not gonna lie it was nice to hold a new born again the smell so good! For a minuet it made me want another baby, and then I went back to reality hahaha Ni I do want more babies or one more baby but I will wait a bit longer! :)

3 day weekend weeehoo!

started Friday! beer pong and chiller with the besties! Now we had dinner with Ricky's mom It was so good! She makes bomb.com food! Soon its Movie time! The Resident should be freaky :) I HATE STUPID MOTHER BLEEPER MOSQUITOES THEY BITE THE BLEEP OUT OF ME! It looks like I have huge baseball sized bites on the back of my legs and my hand is so swollen and it hurts so much. I hate them Die mosquitoes DIE!!!!!!!!!!!

Life...

Life Is hard sometimes but I'm glad I'm alive. I feel like i need to be a super women sometimes and even though I try to be strong, I get to a breaking point. It seems like disappointment after disappointment the but then surprisingly something special happens and I remember myself, I know who I am! I know where I come from and I embrace it. I remember that I'm the only one that can change the way I feel and I I don't like where i am I need to fix it. I wanna be like yes girl LOL to a point! Starting today gonna live life to the fullest! Keep on trucken! over n out! J

friday again we do it again.

It gonna be a fun night with some friends! i wish more were coming over but BORING, or maybe they thing we are boring I don't see how that's the case lol! I created my own drink Jessica hard blueberry lemon ade delish!

Little Saturday!

Ricky got home early today! yeeeeey so he sent me out to get some goodies for a chill movie night! I got some redbulls and stuff to make nachos! Time for yum yums! haha It was nice to go out alone, I love savannah to bits but sometimes its nice to be alone for a little bit. I stepped the door to so many wonderful smells, There is something about smell of Swedish dinners cooking and bbq. I just Love it! Big brother now, Rickey's kinda in to it. lol
Sara going home and Im not sad at all, I was over her sooooooooooo long ago! peace out!

Blake Lively

Blake Lively Covers Glamour July 2011
Ill have he body and her style k thx! haha Truthfully I'm sick of her on gossip girl, but she is beautiful. xoxo

I heart sleep!

I FREAKING LOVE YOU!!!!

she make me smile, brightens my day, turns my frown up side down! Love u Savannah Rain!